okayes. I seriously haven't gotten over you. Like. Seriously. I was thinking bout you de entire of last night and it made me cry. It made me think of how sweet you were in de past. How cold you are now. And i still don't know what caused this change. Like. You changed. A lot i suppose. Gradually, yes. But how? Screw you. On the surface, it looks pratically de same, nothing's going on. But deep down inside, it's now an icebox you have there. Not your heart. It's too cold for any emotions to break through right now. I rememeber when i wasn't feeling well in de past, you'd be de first to ask me how i was, an if i was feeling better. Then you'd do stuff for me. It was so damn sweet. I really treasured those moments a lot you know that? But now, on that day when i nearly passed out due to my fever, WHERE WERE YOU? LIKE, SERIOUSLY, I REALLY MISS DE OLD YOU. YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO CHANGE, BUT WHY DID YOU? Well, you used to read my posts. Right here on this blog. Then you'd ask me about them. I'd tell you. But i guess that'll never happen again? All you need to know is, they're still here for you to read. If you actually even realise I'm blogging bout you, think about it kayes?

I've gotten over you. For good? Idk. Maybe it's only temporary. but who cares? my throat's my priority for now =/ Shit it hurts.

It's hard trying to get over someone. It's really damn hard. I'm trying, but it seems that i can't. Yes, I'll start to cry when i think bout you. Some saw. Some didn't bother. Some asked why. You didn't know. I hope you don't. But i know that someday, you will. I really don't know what to do now... Do i cling on? Or do i continue numbing myself? Shit I'm stuck in this dilemma. Screw it. No one knows that I'm trying to let go right now. They still tease me bout it, not knowing that it actually hurts deep down inside. Shit. The keys are wet now. I just can't seem to stop can I?

Whee~haha changed blogskin as you can see :D
down with sore throat and cough these few days gahh=.=
sad i sound like a guy+girl now. And i keep zaoxia-ing =/
wtf. At least i'm entertaining my squad de girls haha
kayes and i'm still eating fried stuff despite my condiotion xD
not bad cans?
LOLS BUT I'M ABSTAINING FROM CHOC OKAYES. DON'T TEMPT ME.
Omgawd. Pya. VJ. CHINESE VJ(?). loads of hol homework as well plus random bu xi sessions from seniors haha ;D
OMGAWD VANESSA BE JEALOUS xD
haha i shall end my post here.
Need go chiong work ahh!

WHEE~! Lols. Been having loads of fun these few days, staying back with squad, planning out stuff and making complete fools out of ourselves. Not to mentiion all thos bitching sessions. OMG cant belive that de guys think de same way too xD ahha it's glad to know they do though ;D Anyways, de time spent was not wasted i guess? You(guys) are going on my 'friends for life' list~ hearts kayes? Anyone wants a hug? lol nvm~ well, girls, you've always been there so yupps xD lols 2moro need wake up early and chiong to school go camwhore!~WHEE~!~!~! okayes i'd better chillax a lil o.o lols. haish 2moro stil got dnt sia... Dnt in full uni's going to be weird =.= Anyways i still owe ppl choc so yupps i'll try settle it 2moro kayes ppl? :D OMG PYA. Lols dont think ningshen even send out luhh-.- must have forgotten again bahh... Lols i shall sms him. SEE?! Nicest person *points at self* great! xD Lols. haish need polish boots again O: wtf de polish cracked O: meows T.T *cries* haish need polish again aahhh....sians....
Note to self: You see ZhiYu progressing nearer for no reason, RUN. You wont know what he's going to do =/

To: whom it may even concern

Seriously. Deep down, i'm god damn hurt. You hurt my damn feelings without even thinking twice. Well, who knows? Maybe you don't even know that you've hurt me. That justs goes to show how much you don't understand me. If we carry on like this, i may just die you know that? It kills me a little inside everytime you do that, and that little hurt you cause just adds up, till it becomes a huge scar. And, if you really don't know, emotional scars last, and they last long and hard. Well, it justs so happens that you've already scarred me way too many times. Maybe i should just let go. Who knows? The fall and landing may be much more pleasant then what i'm going through right now. Maybe we weren't even meant to be in the first place. We were just playing with each other for that little while and were meant to leave just right after that. Maybe. Just maybe. But i've a strong feeling that it's so true. I'm sorry. Not to you. But to myself. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that i fell in love an idiot like you, yet you tore me up, and crushed my heart.

From:whoever who wrote this